catching up
long time no write i guess.. i've been pretty bad at keeping up with everything i suppose. （︶^︶） let's play catch up.
new tattoo
i guess the best update in my life has been my new tattoo that i got in october. it is of gerard way! i love him so much. :) the tattoo artist i went to did such an amazing job and i cannot wait to go back and get another piece. if you're ever in new jersey, i strongly recommend her work! here's her instagram.
work life
work has been work... i was really settled into my routine and liking my hours. of course, the higher ups can sense that though and absolutely cannot have any type of comfort or contentness at the workplace. so i am now being trained to cover a position that i did not sign up for, nor do i want, just because they are short staffed. isn't it enough that my area is short staffed as well and i have been picking up shifts to help my team? now i must abandon my area to help another area who, frankly, does not cover for us? it's disheartening to think that i must now split my attention between essentially two job positions for no extra bonuses or extra pay. it's a bit unfair if you ask me, and i'm really not happy about it. it's adding stress onto my workload and... making me call out a lot again. i had just gotten my attendance under control and was only calling out once maybe every other month if that. now it is becoming frequent again.
moved out
i think i spoke on the little woes of being moved into a new place with my longtime partner (for the first time). it's been okay. definitely a test of the relationship i suppose. although, living with his daughter has been a bit of a challenge for everyone involved. i think maybe next year we may just get separate places because of that. it's tough for sure. ah well, there's still 8 months on the lease so there's plenty of time to think it through.
too many...
lately i find myself having.. just... too many. too many thoughts, too many hobbies, too many things to do. not enough time or money however. the holidays are quickly approaching and with that it starts a whole new level of stress. i feel like i never get people enough and then they go above and beyond for me and it just makes me feel guilty and even more stressed. this is proving to be even harder this year due to having moved out and having a lot of new expenses. way too stressful. i also get stressed because i have so many hobbies and projects i want to work on and finish but i just never have enough time. or i bounce too quickly from project to project - never finishing anything in the end. it's amazing how something that is supposed to be fun and leisurely turns a bit hectic because it's like i put an imaginary time limit on things. i can't articulate my thoughts on this matter well. but i feel like i need to finish projects. i feel like i'm not being productive enough in the hundreds of hobbies that i have. i want to be more active in the web dev/indie web community but i feel as though the time is just ticking by and i can't squeeze it in. (´。＿。｀) hopefully i can update more soon in the future.